So this has been a weird few months for me. I definitely haven’t been focusing on reading, and I’d really like to get back to it. But I’ve just had so much going on, and my brain is not in the right space for it at the moment.

I have planned to spend my six week summer break trying to read a book each week, but seeing as I have only finished two books in the last six months, I really don’t think that’s going to happen.

Yeah, anyway, this has been an odd couple of months. I’ve recently been diagnosed with AuDHD. And I’m happy with this diagnosis. I’ve wanted it for some time now. But I’m still processing it, and how it has impacted my life to not be diagnosed until now.

It’s a very strange thought that my whole life could have been different if I had been diagnosed in school I might have got a bit of extra support, or I might have been treated differently.

But I think it’s important that I know about it now. I think it has had an impact on my hobbies, like my reading. Executive dysfunction is a big part of my day to day life, and it’s a real struggle for me to get started with tasks, or to switch between tasks.

Knowing this now, I can take it into consideration when I’m having a bad executive function day. I don’t want to push myself if it’s just going to make things worse, but I can also start looking at different ways to support my neurodivergent needs.

Like, I know that I need to make tasks more interesting so that my brain will engage. The ADHD part of my brain needs the novelty for the dopamine, but the autistic part of my brain needs the routine. So I want to find a way to work with that and start getting back into my interests and hobbies.

I think it’s also important to note that I’ve probably been experiencing AuDHD burnout for a little while now. And I’ve seen online that one thing that really helps to get through burnout is to invest time in a special interest. However I actually don’t know what my special interest is these days. I know for a long time it was Harry Potter, but since 2020, I haven’t really wanted to engage in that.

I want a new special interest, but nothing is standing out to me. Nothing is particularly interesting me. So I want to put a bit of time getting back into some creative hobbies and seeing if this can spark anything.

Anyway, it’s good to know went my brain works the way out does. I guess I just need to spend some time working out how they things done, keep on top of all my daily tasks, and avoid burning out.

I don’t know. But I want to enjoy reading again, so I’m going to work on building on that gently.

I’m still figuring things out at the moment.

Any thoughts??

Until next time,

Love, Bobbi. Xx.